I will give you the journey of my life in the last year.
In October 2024 last year I started a physical recovery from anorexia which happened to me largely due to sin in the world. It started and I had a terrible pain in my stomach and it was felt it like 9 out of 10 the pain. I was in agony for three days stretch. It subsided though, during this time as always I was praying and holding on and trusting in God as Probverbs 3:5-6 tell us "Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; And lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him, And he shall direct thy paths." During this I made my food easier to prepare and ready made food that just needing heating. The pain continued for some months at a much reduced level and I had moderate light body swelling internally. My BMI was very low at that point and the pain lasted for some months at a decreasing level.
I did think that some people may not be able to eat again after what I went through but with time my body began to accept the food more and my abdomen became more protruded as it does with learning to eat again. I also gained some fluid but I mostly ignored this and distracted myself during this time of healing and knew that it had healing properties to the fluid and that it was temporary. In the past this had been my downfalling these fluid shifts the sense of change in the body on my sensory system-but this time I tried to not worry about it so much and remembered what the good Lord said about not worrying so much about material things and persevered through this.
The pain has gone today and redistribution will happen in time and I distract myself from worrying about the healing process with minor fluid shifts. My height that decreased during this time went back to its normal height and a little more. I didn't know that my body could produce weight again from the skeleton it once was.
The body can repair from severe damage as my GP told me to, people can have operations to if needed. Also, with God if your recovery is to be in his will it is possible if you trust him to get to a semi functional or functional state as well. I was taking Holy water during this time and the Holy Sacraments at church which I continued to attend regularly during this time. If you need to live by supplements alone and your body has reached that state, that is ok to and this is nutrition to God as well.
In December I also had mild gas poisoning and God rescued my life with this and I got treatment and gave thanks to God and came out beaming and got to have a Christmas free from headache due to the gas.
In hospital briefly for gas poison recovery
Then a miracle of God came and the words of the abuse that entered my body would just disappear in tracts sometimes overnight and the wounds would heal up of the pain by Christ alone and the Holy Spirit. I could hear them coming to remove the words to at times if awake. We have a mysterious working and he God hates violence as Psalm 11 tells us and he will support those who are afflicted and not abandon them as Psalm tells us 37 in difficult times. Wounds healing and being equipped to cope in extreme trials happens time and again through Christ as it happened to with Saints such as Saint Agatha.
During this I too held onto Jeremiah’s promises for a plan for peace again and hope as my destiny (Jeremiah 29:11). I also thought about eternal life beyond earth with Christ. This was my own mission amongst extreme trials that the former Pope Francis to has spoken of too in the “Footsteps of Christ our Hope speech.”
During this time of religious abuue I would also look after my spirit to and ask for a blessing at church and prayers to from the minister to and they were powerful tools. I would confess to what I was hearing as abuse to heal my soul. Give glory to God. I could have been injured, but I don’t think one part of my body was touched thanks be to the most merciful God. Life isn't as always sweet as roses as a Christian, but there is inner joy and peace with Christ which you cannot put a wordly price on.
Now I want to share something sweet with you. In 2023 I was nearly taken to my grave with anorexia, but Christ got me out of there. At that time, visitors came to see me. My niece came who I helped to raise as a child and she wept and said goodbye to me. Her father came to and my brother in law came and was the one who was leading prayers and always hoped for me to come out. Christ intervened and I came out like Christ’s most loved Lazarus to. I was to like Sleeping Beauty to be woken by Christ's though who is the Son of God by sending the Holy Spirit with its healing touch.
Today, I sit well and like a new person. My niece got married on Sunday and I was there to attend and I cried when I saw the three of them my family members coming down the aisle like they came to also when they saw me when I was expected to go to my grave.
They was my strong team who was involved in helping to pray for me during a great difficult time and they came out arm in arm to walk my niece down the aisle to meet her husband I was there to watch and alive. I could be there at the wedding, only due to God. People greeted me and remarked I was a new person in Christ to as Corunthians promises us (2 Corinthians 5:17).). As we all do I walk my daily path with Christ, but the enemy has lost. Praise be to God. Get help from others and from a hospital if you cannot recover alone, I have done that in the past but this was right for me today with Christ. Do not delay though looking for help in the medical system if you need to which Christ supports too.
I have shared a video of a video clip of them coming down the aisle. A time to celebrate. Hold on in extreme trials and God will see you through.
I have had my faith since a child and it has Christ who tenderly stood by me, he has not abandoned me. Give yourself to him again if you have separated from him.
This picture is from my 1st prinary school aged 4-8 I attended
